I've been MIA for a little while and it doesn't feel good. I apologize for not replying to the lovely comments I have gotten in the last few months. I read them as they came and they really made my day. I thank you for sharing parts of your life with me. I will write back soon.
Things are a bit difficult for me right now and am trying to figure some things out. I have so much to say, and hopefully soon I will be able to post a lot of that.
My husband has been deployed for about a month now. We haven't been able to be in touch as much as I'd like, and so it is difficult to have meaningful conversations aside from "Are all the bills taken care of? Did you run the cars this week? and How's work?" After the issues that we had early this year, we decided to work really hard in our marriage. We've had very good times, times that make me feel that we are stronger than ever, and bad times, times that make me re-think the longevity of our marriage. Not saying anything groundbreaking, but communication is key in a relationship, especially when your marriage is in trouble. Unfortunately, a deployment doesn't make this any easier.
We both agree in that our focus right now is to ensure that he stays safe and emotionally stable. We will both do our best and stay as close in thought to each other as possible. I will continue to use this time to figure things out for myself. We have no rush in making a decision about our marriage.
I really wish that my worries were about anything else, but if that were the case, I wouldn't be the person that I am now... and I like myself very much.
